just living my life.

Missing those days in primary school, back when it was all fun and no one talked bout anyone. Back when the teachers were our best fern, back when I had what I had, back when there were less thinking to do!

Now I realize that I’m going to be 14 in a matter of time, and I’m already in Form 2.im not a kiddo anymore, I’m a teenager, living a teenager's life. Now its all everyone gossiping around, no matter if you’re good or not. People just can’t shut their gaps anymore. Now the teachers are like your 2nd mother and your worst enemies, they just mess around in telling you what to do and etc.

I know my mistakes, and I learnt from it and by that, I gained back all my old friends. Its really nice to have them back, but its a lost that I lost my best friend, Ashwitaa to my enemies. Now I know that, trusting someone/anyone doesn’t make any difference. Its you , you , and only yourself to trust .

Study, that all I have to do now, to prove myself once again. And hopefully by that I’m going to get back all that I’ve got. I wouldn’t say that I’ve been through a lot. But I think I have been through a tiny part of life, mistakes. arggh, i really miss those times when I used to be like ' OMG, zac efron is cute! ‘And now it’s like 'OMG, that guy is hawt!’. Ha-ha, have I changed! i lost some people but i gained lots’ people!

Today, I’m writing all these down, more like typing all this down because I was seeking a place to spill it all out! I’m having my examinations and I really hope I’ll be able to pass the exams. Typing down all these here seems so right! I’m saying that there is a tiny chapter in my life , I’m not proud of it but because of those mistakes , I changed and I wouldn’t have been more happier.

I’m not saying that I’m happy with those mistakes, I’m saying that I’m happy with what I got afterwards, it was what I deserved. Of course I did get all those scolding’s and bashing up , but as I said, I deserve it , and I deserve it more than anyone else . Now, I’m closer to my parents, being with my sister like how sisters should be and having not to hide anything from anyone. Having my friends back is awesome, and most of all I get to find me back.

I’m not trying to say that it wasn’t me doing all those mistakes, it was me alright. But a different part of me, a different part of Harinder. It’s really hard to change; now I know that. But I’m making an effort. As I know, people have always got things to say. And I think I had enough of people. There is people coming and telling me ' Harinder, you haven’t changed a bit.' but those people, I wouldn’t call them people, those friends of mine who I really trust tells me ' Harinder, you've changed’.

I stand on what I believe, I believe that people can say whatever they want, but it’s you and the close people around you who should know who you really are. I can say with my head held high now that Kaosi is my best friend. People change. I sure do miss certain people I had. But ...maybe it’s worth missing them.

Those who play a really important role in who I m today are , my mum, dad, sister , brother, Kaosi, Geet, Calvin, Ashwitaa ,Thevin, Suraj, Jasveen , Thashweenia , and so many other. I may not be in contact with some of them anymore. But they sure do have a place in my heart.

I hid all my sorrows in my smile, if you know me well enough, you'll know how much I’m suffering. for that person who i really really miss, I really hope that you're happy where ever you are, and with who ever you are. I’m really sorry that I hurt you, if I did.

Well, took out all those I had inside of me, and its still killing me. I’m trying to forget it, and forget you. Hope this all pays off.

toddles:)