So its been a year since I've updated my blog. So many things have changed. Some for the better.. and the rest better not be told. So now im here, updating my blog. Even forgetting the password of my account. who reminded me of the existence of my blogg? the one and only, of couse, SURAJ . haha! just because he likes seeing his pictures on my blog. He still does play an important role in my life. Being my best friend even after everything that happened between us. Not that we were together or anything. But between the both of us, we know. So he has a girlfriend there, and im happy for him. :) it has been 4 wonderful years knowing this ass of a guy who never seize to make me more tension and happy at the same time. and I thank the lord for bringing such a person into my life :)
Time has passed so many freaking thingss has changed. New friends. Some old friends missing. Some old enemies became a friend. and all that shit just going around. the only thing you can do, is HOPE. because hope is the second most powerful thing beside fear. Because at some point of your life the only thing you can do, is hope. thats it. hope comes in all ways, all meanings, everything that could define happiness comes from hoping. HOPING FOR THE BEST, HOPING FOR A HAPPY ENDING, HOPING THINGS WOULD WORK OUT. all goes out to being happy in the end. using hope with a bad intention, is not something to be proud or, nor you should talk about it. because yeah, KARMA's a bitch. now now, why is it a bitch but not a bastard? because thats LIFE . when youre a girl, everything you do, could possibly turn out to you being labelled a bitch, and trust me, PEOPLE DO NOT FORGET ONCE YOURE CALLED A BITCH . unless you do something to prove them wrong :)whereas if youre a guy, and you banging every girl in a freaking club, you'd only be called a bastard for a day or two. no harm done. life.
Here I am, playing my hair, blur, sitting on my bed and thinking wtff am i writing on my blog. part of life huh? so shit really does happen in life. like when youre existence is not acknowledged by someone. When you try so hard to make a conversation but the person doesnt appreciate it. When you try to look your best, yet there's someone who would say the opposite. When you have hurt so bad, and people talk like they know everything but they freaking dont. When you try to hide your feelings coz youre afraid they're gonna slap you in the ass. whats the only thing you could do? think about all these shit and write it in your blog? HAHAH well thats pretty much what im doing.
I havent written things like this in so long. been crying out all the pain without really letting things go. now, writing seems to be the perfect thing to do. when everything has accumulated that you just wanna sit alone and write about things. right now, I have so much, SO MUCH in me that i dont even know which one of those things am i supposed to write about. and now suraj said that he used to like going through my blog and reading all these things i call 'nonsense' haha. life is like a butterfly? HAHA at least thats what i thought. how much can you chill and keep taking the shit thrown at you in life? im only seventeen. i know. but ive gone through shit people never even thought of in life.
i dont need to prove anything to anyone. because i know the people around me knows me best. thanks to all those who have made me a fool, who have stabbed me in the back, to those who advice me, scold me, and to those who has hurt me, cheers and i hope you will u would have a good life. thanks for the experience and making me a wiser person. and to life, i would be here. still taking the shit you throw at me and flushing it down the toilet somehow. :)
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